It’s crazy how fast the buzz comes back after you’ve been sober for so long.Whiskey stood there, on my doorstep, just like he had one year before. Except this time, there was no rain, no anger, no wedding invitation — it was just us.It was just him — the old friend, the easy smile, the twisted solace wrapped in a glittering bottle.It was just me — the alcoholic, pretending like I didn’t want to taste him, realizing too quickly that months of being clean didn’t make me crave him any less.But we can’t start here.No, to tell this story right, we need to go back.Back to the beginning.Back to the very first drop.This is my love letter to Whiskey. I only hope he reads it.
One day, whether you are 14, 28 or 65,
you will stumble upon someone who will start a fire in you that cannot die.
However, the saddest, most awful truth you will ever come to find-
is they are not always with whom we spend our lives.
This was the dedication in this book and it freaking gutted me, like reached down my throat and brought up my heart kind of gutted me. I just knew, JUST KNEW that this would be a book that I wouldn’t survive intact. I have never been happier that I was right.
A Love Letter to Whiskey isn’t an easy read (I know that’s exactly what most reviews would say – BUT IT IS TRUE!). It takes a different kind of inner strength to read this book, and I will pretty much admit that I had to read this book in batches.
This is story whose foundation is angst – this will make you feel, feel in a way that will make you feel as if you are bleeding from within. You will feel as if you constantly have a tickle in your throat that indicates that you want to cry and you will cry. You will sob your eyes out. Let me be clear, I hated this book, I was not prepared to read this book, and I definitely did not expect this deep need within me to complete this book – but as I read this book, I didn’t realise when or where I fell in love with the book, with the characters and definitely with this author’s writings (another new author for me!).
“I saw him first, but it didn’t matter. Because he saw her.”
This is a story of two people, Jamie and B, who were friends first – that their connection as friends is solid, durable, and it was easy to see how and when they fell in love with each other. This their story. A story of friendship, love, heartache, and so much emotion that the readers drowned in them.
It is a story where time is the enemy – and miscommunication just became their style. There is heart break, betrayals and mistakes. Yet through all of it, there was their love. A love that couldn’t be denied – it was there in each of their actions, their decisions. That desire, the want, THE NEED for each other was palpable in its intensity that it is difficult to deny them.
“I was spinning, tipsy, teetering on the edge of being wasted on Whiskey. I’d dreamed of kissing Jamie so many times, but nothing could compare to how it really felt.”
Jamie is Whiskey. He’s smooth, he’s charming and it’s easy to love him right from the start. His nickname is not only apt but pretty much defines him. It’s easy to get addicted to this boy who turns into a man.
“It turned out a Whiskey stain was just as permanent as ink, and I wondered if I would ever truly wash myself clean. Or if I even wanted to.”
As for B, how do like a character, who doesn’t even like herself for the most part? But here’s the crux, B is tough, sometimes frustrating, but I promise you by the end of the book, you’ll start to see parts of yourself in her – the disconcerting thing is that somehow by the end, you start to identify yourself with this character and you start thinking ‘Is this even healthy?’ and while the answer maybe a resounding No, you still can’t stop reading and THAT’S HOW YOU KNOW, YOU HAVE A WINNER in your hands!
While it took me a couple of reading times to get through the story, it wasn’t because it was boring. On the contrary, this was one of the most complex stories ever and it was so easy to get addicted to their story! I had worried, stressed out and even heckled my man till he ended up just putting my e-reader in my hand and left me alone with the book.
“It turned out I was water, he was whiskey, and I couldn’t dilute him —not now that I knew he loved me enough to let me. I needed to be stronger, to be ice the next time I melted with him.”
As I said, before, this book makes you feel – you might not like what you end up feeling, but every feeling that you have would tangible, there would be moments where I was unable to breathe with the force of what I reading, but I am so happy that I stuck it out, for their story is soul shattering, gut wrenching and definitely a book that made the thin line between love and hate, just disappear!
“Even if you must move on, please don’t ever let us go.”
Rare are those books that not only make you feel every word, in every beat of your heart, but rarer are those books that can do that and yet stay with you in ways that you never even imagined. A Love Letter to Whiskey does both and does it with a flair that you did not even expect going in!
Just a little tidbit – I had stressed eaten a whole box of chocolates, by the end of the book and while I don’t drink, if anything could have made me start drinking, it would have been this book.
Kandi Steiner is a Creative Writing and Advertising/Public Relations graduate from the University of Central Florida living in Tampa with her husband. Kandi works full time as a social media specialist, but also works part time as a Zumba fitness instructor and blackjack dealer.
Kandi started writing back in the 4th grade after reading the first Harry Potter installment. In 6th grade, she wrote and edited her own newspaper and distributed to her classmates. Eventually, the principal caught on and the newspaper was quickly halted, though Kandi tried fighting for her “freedom of press.” She took particular interest in writing romance after college, as she has always been a die hard hopeless romantic (like most girls brought up on Disney movies).
When Kandi isn’t working or writing, you can find her reading books of all kinds, talking with her extremely vocal cat, and spending time with her friends and family. She enjoys beach days, movie marathons, live music, craft beer and sweet wine – not necessarily in that order.