Upon receiving an letter anonymously two weeks prior, ghosts from the past began to come back up to the surface. Nearly every night for the past couple of weeks, poor James has been experiencing a reoccurring nightmare regarding Emilia. In this nightmare he feels that Emilia is trying to tell him something. Perhaps it is nothing, or perhaps it is about how she died. His nightmare came from the very depths of his soul, haunting him silently until he left his guard down and he experienced an ugliness he had never realized existed inside of him. Despite the ugliness and horror that plagued him, James felt as if his soul held the key to answer his reoccurring dreams and that promised to relieve him of his horror. His doctor, Doctor Jonathan assured him that his dreams were connected to his own subconscious state where successions of emotions, sensations, images and ideas occurred in his mind with him knowing it. Doctor Jonathan claimed that this phenomenon was more prevalent in his sleeping state. He also believed that every picture that James saw within his dreams was a form of unspoken contact from Emilia. It wasn’t just Doctor Jonathan that agreed. Richard also agreed that James was perhaps suffering from the loss of Emilia. Even Jennifer believed that Emilia was trying to reach out to James to tell him something in his dreams. However, Jennifer went a step even further and asked James to go to Emilia’s tomb and attempt to communicate with her that way. However, when James goes to meet Emilia’s parents, his adventure truly begins and he begins to learn things he never thought he would. After believing for so long that Emilia died at the hands of a brain tumor, he quickly learns that is not the case. After hearing from Emilia’s mother that her daughter had been killed, James feeling confused goes to the Iredell County Jail to meet Emilia’s killer, Adam Jackson. This is when James realizes that Emilia was indeed murdered by the hands of a cold blooded killer. Every memory James has of Emilia turns out to be from a pack of twisted and horrible lies and he soon realizes he was not the person he thought himself to be.
I received a digital copy of the book via the author in exchange for an honest review.
Before you read the review (or even the book), you should know that you need a particular mindset to actually be able to immerse in this book – You need to be a little philosophical and lot more pragmatic because when this book grips you, it won’t let go until it has wrung out each and every bit of emotion that you have in you.
Or maybe it was just me!
James has been living with a lie – the death of his girlfriend Emilia. Nightmares that have no meaning have been plaguing James regarding Emilia that he feels are a sign from her!
This book is bleak (I think that was the intention of the author!), but it is also hopeful. It deals with mental illness in a way that I haven’t read before. The journey the author takes us on, is nothing if not emotionally wringing. Being a reader, I tend to get over -invested in what I am currently reading (even if it’s two different books at the same time!) and the view I had of a mind that is depressed and overcome with grief is something that I have a feeling I will never be able to forget!
As for the writing, while I did feel the story a bit lagging at times, the plotline and the story never suffered for it – the story and the characters were enough for me to keep turning pages to find out what would happen next! The ending while predictable is also a point in favour for the story because it isn’t the ending, but the journey that James goes through (and the one you tag along for!) is what the book is all about!!
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This book is worth a read at least once, by anyone who loves reading – not just because it deals with a sensitive topic but because you do get to learn something – now what that something is, depends on what you take away from the book!